Since I last wrote I attended the fracture clinic and was told to leave my finger strapped for another week then remove. I was told the swelling would take time to reduce, and that the x-ray showing White around the edge of my bones was not good,,,,and if I was to have another break soon they would need to check my bone density.

Occupational Therapist
The OT came, she saw how small a space I live in and how damp it also is,  due to water keep filling up in the cellar, causing damp walls and damp inside my cupboards, which is rotting my cloths. She recognised not much could be done to improve my home environment as it was already too cramped.
She therefore is referring me to her college who deals with housing, to come and assess me.

She recognised I didn't have appropriate seating and so arranged for me to receive a suitable chair, which will be delivered next week.

The house is too cold and damp for me to stay for long in as the convector heater on full all night still isn't enough to take the dampness from the air. Plus there is mold on the walls that is not good to inhale, so I spend time away as much as possible.

Regarding my rent, due to the delay in payment from my Housing Benefits,  I mentioned in my last post I received a letter from the Landlord demanding a £30 payment for the delay, and threats regarding if it was to happen again, that he would not accept my current arrangement I have with him. I wrote an email to Housing Benefits regarding this, asking for help with the payment, plus brought into their offices the letter for them to copy, I await their response.

Regarding my receipt of ESA benefits I am unsure as to where I stand, I received a text asking for a sick cert from December, in addition to the 2 letters I recieved. I havent been to my Drs to ask for as I was told last time she wasnt happy to give me without a diagnosis.
Although I did put in a written request on 5 January to have access to my paper files, was told it could take a few days for them to call to arrange, but as of yet still havent received the call.

Next week I have my MRI, brain and lumber scan. They may or maynot show the cause of my problems, but at least should go towards helping a diagnosis to be made regarding my current health issues.

Ok here is my long overdue update.....

Since Friday 28 November 2014

I want to point out at this stage that there are many aspects to my case; threads of stresses in my life that I believe go hand in hand with my health problems. I therefore would like also today to introduce some of those aspects to...

namely that I am also a Targeted Individual, which was brought to my awareness firstly in 1996, whilst I pioneered and developed services for  Women Crack cocaine users here in Britain.

Here is my blogs regarding the matters:-

click to read

Surveilance/ Gang stalking call it what you will this is partly how it’s done

Monday 11 November 2014 I published this blog

women and Crack: Responding to need
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With these aspects in line I will continue to blog my daily life,

the following day Saturday 29 November 2014 I tripped accidentally on my computer wire and it fell and smashed. My tablet no longer was able to connect to charger so rendered useless, and my phone will not permit me to use internet for social sites. I believe there is a vested interest somewhere in me being online, so said ok I will focus my time on others things and see what pans out,,,,,within days whilst visiting a friend I told her how of this and she had been given a computer the same day mine smashed so she loaned it to me.

The following week

Monday 8 December, I attended my appointment with the eye specialist; he stated that in my files it said I didn’t have double vision. I assured him I did and that the Woman who tested my eyes remarked how my GP’s needed to do the blood test and refer me to an Endocrinologist but they refused, instead they only tested my blood which came back ok.

He tested my eye movement and noted the defect in the left eye.  He placed drops in and looked closer with a machine, he said they were fine at the back and noted my lids were not. I told him about the possibility of me having CP and that causing the muscle tension in my eye; he said no it looked like Thyroid eye disease. He asked my history regarding Thyroid eye disease, I informed him how I ‘cured’ it previously and explained how, although he seemed to shut off at this point; closing his eyelids. Maybe he was very busy and didn’t have the time. He asked I arranged to come back in 6 months to be checked again.

Thursday 11 December, I discovered after checking my bank account that my benefits had been stopped.  Including my Housing Benefit that was due, at that time, after phoning around to find out why, I come to be told that all my benefits had been suspended because  I hadn’t returned a for from ATOS that I had never received. 

I therefore attempted to email Housing Benefit all my details they required including my bank statement for previous 2 weeks.  There was much difficulty sending the email but eventually it registered as sent.

Here is the email I sent

To whom it may concern,

I write to you regarding the suspension of my Housing Benefit claim.

I now am of the understanding that this is due to ESA informing you they have closed my claim, via your letter I called your office regarding the matter, as I had NOT been notified by ESA of this happening but had received my payments as normal upon the receipt of my sick cert's, so was led to assume all was in order. I spoke with someone regarding the matter, whom shared my understanding of what had happened. My assumption was there may have been a delay in ESA receiving my sick cert and so they pre-empted and sent you notification of their closure to my claim.
The man I spoke with said he would check on the system regarding this and so lift the suspension and that if it was other he would write to me.
I haven't received anything as of yet, but found yesterday my ESA payment was not in my account as expected, so I called ESA.

They informed me that I hadn't returned the questionnaire sent to me by ATOS. I shared no I hadn't received one.
They therefore had closed my claim, but are resending me the questionnaire; which I am to return and then they will decide whether or not to pay my benefit.

I then called your office and spoke with a man who I explained all this to. He explained that I needed to show you my income currently, as I am now only receiving my working tax credit.
I attached the bank statement, circling the payments from working tax credit and also any book sales. These are currently my only incomes.

I hope I have clarified things sufficiently, as I am due a rent payment next week and hope all can be resolved by then.

Please inform me if anything else is required for you to process my claim.

Yours Sincerely

Louise Clarke

I was low on electricity, (on a  metre about 38p), and therefore intent on going to stay at my friends to keep warm, but needed to remain in London to receive the form for my medical assessment, to kick start my Benefits.  It arrived the next day, but to my surprise I had somehow gained £10 on my electricity metre, so I could stay but only had no other money but petrol; so I drove to my friends. Friday 12 December.

The following Monday (15 December) I called the Housing Benefit service re payment for my rent and was told the email had arrived but the document I had attached had become contaminated and wouldn’t open. My rent now due I returned London the next day and went with all documents by hand. As I walked to the office I accidently knocked my knuckle on a chair at the bus stop (special awareness is not always good for me), it hurt like a break, throbbing but I continued on with my plans,  but it swoll up and showed internal bleeding, so I ,knowing how to strap a little finger when broken, due to the numerous times I had done in the past, I strapped it myself to save time and money I didn’t have for bus fares, as driving was painful with it and awkward.



Wednesday 17 November 2014, I could see the break may well be on joint and therefore need a splint, so I knew from past similar breaks strapping doesn’t not heal, a split is required, therefore I went to A&E, and yes I was broken on joint. The nurse said it was an Ulna something????????

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Thursday 18 December

I attended my appointment with the Neurologist, he assessed my physical abilities and I filled him in on my life of difficulties that were in line with Cerebral palsy symptoms, he noted how my balance was not good. I explained to him how my knees are so weak and was very swollen, but since receiving physiotherapy exercises to do, the swelling reduced soon after, and also initially I could not stand on my right leg, due to no balance, but have improved through doing. He was pleased with my attitude towards trying to help myself and do the activities that would.

He said it would be hard to diagnose CP now as it should be done in child hood. He decided to request MRI scans of both my brain and my lumber area of spine, to rule out any problems there.

Friday 19 December
The next morning I received my next appointment to see the Neurologist again; it will be August 2015

but only had about 47p left to live on but petrol in my tank; so I drove to my friends yet again, to stay for Christmas period.
22 December 2014

I called the Housing Benefit re my claim, and was told it was in the in-trap to be done. I asked would it be done before Christmas and was told very likely as they were working until 5 pm Christmas Eve.

I checked my account each day but it wasn’t there.

Christmas Day at Beach

I returned back to London to attend my appointment at the fracture clinic. Monday 29 December 2014.
I was seen by the consultant and the Zimmer frame was replaced with a normal finger strapping. I am to return in 2 weeks, to see him again.

It is currently still swollen and hurts if it bends or gets knocked.

I also had received my appointment for my Brain and spinal scan, which is at the end of this month.


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I have received 2 reminders that ESA need sick certs from my GP, in order to continue with my claim.
 Due the harassment I have received trying to claim this benefit I chose after the last Dr said she was not happy to give me one and decided based on me informing her I had an appointment with the Neurologist due, she agreed to write one up until that day. I decided I would go without, especially when seeing how my claims were being sent into turmoil.

My landlord had left a message on my answer machine on 23 December saying I needed to pay my rent soon or he would charge me £30 for the delay.
I called the Housing benefits again, numerous times and sent my landlord emails updating him on what was the situation, but I was told last week by other tenants he was not back at work until yesterday 5 January, and was also told by Housing since, they had sorted out my claim but the money would not be going into my account until the 5^th, and that this was to do with the banking system for Christmas.

Yesterday the money still was not in the account; nor today. I called and asked what was the problem and was told it was due to the large amount being paid, it needed clearance elsewhere also. So I wait patiently.

I also tried 3 times to phone the Tax office to inform them I’m returning to work. I had to therefore waste money each time calling and answering a machine all my details only to be told each time after there was no one available to take my call, on the third attempt I got as far as waiting in a queue listening to music for about 23 mins, then my call was taken.

Today 6 January 2015 after checking my bank account again I returned to find the post had arrived, and I have received a letter from ESA dated 29 December 2014, that I will receive ESA from 27 November 2014, may need a work focus interview and may need sick certs although that paragraph is so ambiguous I aint sure what they are saying but payments are being made.

Meanwhile yesterday I asked for a bank statement printout as I had more money in my account than I should, and it shows I have received a payment from JSA, which is Job seekers allowance, which no I haven’t claimed for but hopefully all will sort out soon.


And on Saturday 3 January 2015 I discovered that medical records I had of mine in my house have been removed, thus confirming further that the truth is not as it seems.

I’m due back at the fracture clinic next week and so hope to update on all then.

OT assistant Last week an OT assistant called leaving her details; I returned the call and stated I received her message.  Yesterday she called and left message saying she will come next week, I confirmed on her voicemail that I would be here.


Thank you for reading.

 'And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.'
John 8:32

My letter I wrote for my GP's to place in my file, as it appears not much is being written there

Patient : Louise Clarke                                                                                

To who it may concern,

I am writing this letter in order to address the concern I have after my telephone conversation I had with Dr********** last Monday 17/11/14.

I have suffered with physical complaints for many years, mostly pertaining to my back, but in the last year I also have had great difficulties regarding my knees.

Last week I was in need of a repeat sick cert, in order to receive the appropriate benefits, therefore I called the surgery and asked a Dr called to arrange one. Dr *********** called me and told me she was not happy to write one for me. Not wishing to debate the matter I said ok. but then she went on to state that she had read through my notes and that there was nothing to suggest I was unfit for work.
I therefore went on to explain to her that I had previously been having Dr ^^^^^^^^^^  write my sick certs, and she had continued to write that my problem was with my knees, although I had not been mentioning my knees but explaining how my back was too weak for me to sit to write and that I was an Author so needed to sit to write.
I also asked did it not say in my notes that I had collapsed a few weeks back and waiting over a day for a GP to call, who then told me to got to A&E.
I added it was not the issue with my knees that prevented me from working, and yes the swelling had gone down but the muscles have remained weak.

She then remarked that i did not have a diagnosis. To which I informed her I was currently waiting to attend an appointment with Neuro, and that this was as a result of me seeing a physiotherapist at the MCAT team, and asked was that referral report not in my file either.

I said I was not a doctor but do know that my symptoms are fitting what is found with Cerebral Palsy and that it may not be CP I have but I hope the Neuro specialist will be able to diagnose the cause of my problems, as the physiotherapist in his report notes that he does not think it is caused by bones.

Dr ********  asked when was my Neuro Appt for, to which I informed her 18/12/14. She said that she would give me a sick cert until then and wrote one to end on the 17/12/14.

My concerns are that it seems my files are absent of the issues I have been stating to the GP's each time I make contact and thus this misunderstanding has occurred, plus my files will not contain a clear picture of my health, thus I feel a need to outline my current health difficulties and the resulting problems.

My disabilities

My first issue is with my spine, I have suffered from weakness in my spine since 1997 but also on occasion before had difficulties, dating back to childhood.

In 1998 I had a discectomy L5/S1 which prior to having I was unable to walk for 9 months, in which time I suffered from extreme sciatic pain where the disc was pushing into the nerve. I was offered surgery but refused and hoped to cure myself without needing the operation, I received a lumber injection that had no effect. So I was wrapped in plaster caste , my whole torso and sent home with crutches, I was unable to sit throughout that time so was transported around on a stretcher, receiveing various forms of physio and also I used Chinese medicine and other alternative treatments. Throughout the time I was on maximum doses of pain killers. i eventually accepted I needed surgery and agreed to have. 

The surgery was successful, thus I returned to work, offering training and counselling but my back remained weak, the muscles on random occasions would just give way, and my torso became like jelly, with no strength to hold me up. The occurrance of this increased over time, but also I have become more aware of when my muscles are weakening so now manage to avoid total collapse occurring so often; although sometimes like with the recent collapse I had no prior warning; I stood up to go out and collapsed back down again.
At those times I can not lift my body even onto to zimma frame and once I do manage to get onto, can't move it as it requires I hold myself up as i lift the frame up off the floor which I lack the strength/stability to do; it's like my body becomes paralysed from above my waist, So maneuvering is extremely difficult. Also when this total collapse occurs my ability to pass urine also stops. This has resulted in the past in my stomach swelling up very large and then projectile vomiting occurring. Always when I collapse i start to feel a tightening around my waist to. I find the best I can do is try to relax and gradually the problem goes,this takes about a week on average for me to be able to stand without a zimma frame, but also this can be for limited time.

My current problem is with my spine, the lumber area is weak and as the day progresses it becomes increasingly weaker, the muscles front and back seem to struggle to hold me up, like the strength depleats from them; so I am unable to sit for long.
With walking the distance i can walk varies, from not far at all like only around my home, and maybe in need of zimma frame, for support, to walking quite a distance, but after walking for X amount of time my knees become stiff the muscles become weaker around my knees and start to lock up, and also the lumber area struggles like without strength and my lower spine becomes sore,and my hips become more and more flexed, resulting sometimes in me having great difficulty getting home, needing to rest by leaning over walls as I struggle to stand up.
Climbing steps or walking on an incline is extremely hard, and also I walk very slow, and if I try to walk faster its like the mechanism involve does not function properly and the rhythems in waking go wrong and my legs buckle, and just wont do as required, it feels like I'm walking like a robot. and I need to concentrate my mind to move my limbs. 

Also sometime my spacial awareness is out and so  I trip/miss step or knock things with my feet in shops say.

My difficulties seem to be with my muscle tension either too tight like in my hips, knees and eye; causing double vision. or too loose so no/little lumber strength or in my ankle my foot buckles sometimes under me.
Once home from walking my back weakened it can be very hard to sit in a chair even with pillows for support I slide down the chair. Plus after walking my calf muscles tighten up along with my thighs, and hips and so sitting becomes uncomfortable. I also have pain in my ankles of stiffness after walking.

Resting causes muscle stiffness so I try to move around regularly, but tiredness weakens my muscles further so it is  a constantly varied situation for me. It is like i only have so much I can do in a day, which also varies, but if I rest well I can achieve more. Also it is noticeable that my muscle recovery time is far too long, in that normal rest time is not sufficient to ever fully recover. Also when I get tired my body starts to vibrate and shake, and jolts involuntary. It is like my body is suffering from exhaustion even though I am not doing things that would over exert an average person of my age.

I also will add here that I am currently under an eye specialist for my double vision, where the muscles in my left eye become too tight, diagnosed as thyroid eye disease. He did request that i have blood tests and be referred to an endocrinologist to determine the cause of my sweating I have and also the nervous twitches and jerks, and anything other to understand my eye condition, but the practice decided against referring me to the Endocrinologist. I am soon to visit the eye specialist again with the results, (8/11/14).

The above outline I hope helps you to understand why I ask for sick certs, as my condition results in normal activities taking far to long to achieve, hence just getting ready for the day can take hours as it requires i rest often sometimes, and coupled with this doing basic home chores like washing up, which strains my back as standing still is far more difficult than moving, in fact moving helps me lots but tires me too. All a balancing act that is unpredictable so planning ahead is somewhat hit or miss.

I feel i have covered my complaints pretty much here in this letter, and it is my hope that with this being placed in my file a better understanding can be reached by anyone concerned with my case.

I thank you for you time in reading this and hope future communication is improved by it.

Yours Sincerely

Louise Clarke (DOB )

The Dr called, (a different  one than normally calls, the one who said the swelling in my knees was fat)

She started by saying..she is not happy to sign me off............I said Ok, ( a bit perplexed)

she then added, she has been reading through my notes and there is nothing to suggest I am unfit for work.
I responded with the facts...saying

'The other Dr keeps writing about my knees on my Med Cert, but I don't say anything about my knees. The swelling has gone down and they are not strong. but I can work with bad knees it's my back; I can't sit up for long, I write, I am an author but because my back is weak I can't.

'I colapsed a few weeks back and waited over a day for a Dr to call, who then said go to A&E.
don't know if it says it in my file.

She said there's no diagnosis.

I told her 'I found the symptoms fit with CP- maynot be, maybe something else, I'm not a doctor. My symptoms fit with cerebral palsy, and I want to know what is case and why. I am awaiting my appointment with Neuro'


She asked when was the appointment for


I told her the 18 Dec, I added that in my file there should be a report done by the physiotherapist from the MCAT team, he asked for the appointment to be made to Nuero and said it was not my bones. So he asked you to refer me to Neuro.
(She sounded like she found it.)

She said 'ok, but laying down all day is not good for your back, and did they give you back exercises.

I said yes and do them when I can. But first I had physio for where my knees were swollen, and now they have gone down, but still they are not strong. And my back is weak in lumba area and sore in lower area. And that also my calf muscles at the back hurt after walking and my ankles hurt too.

So I don't sit for long and I need to in order to write.
(forgot to add I have double vision when reading/writing)


She said ok she would sign for one month, until my neuro appointment.

Fri 17 Oct
the next morning after posting this I received a call from one of the GP's at the surgery; the one who had called me when I was unable to walk).
He said that he had received the letter sent by the guy from the MCAT team, asking they refered me to Neuro, and so he asked was there any hospital I would prefer. i said no that I may as well stay with the one I have been using as they know me and have my files.
I also found a voicemail on my phone on Friday, from social services, whom I called. This GP had called them and asked they sent an Occupational Therapist to assess my home environment. They told me it may take a few weeks.
The GP asked had they called, and I told him yes and thanked him.

Soon after the post come and in an unsealed envelope the letter asking for my referral to be made.

So I await the appointment.

Yesterday Thursday 16 Oct I called the surgery to have a GP write out another sick cert for me to receive benefits. They said I had to talk to the GP who is dealing with my case. I awaited her call. I explained how I had collapsed about 2 weeks ago and now was walking but not strong in my back.
I collected my sick cert and once again she had written I had Artheritis of my knees. (which I don't have but I will not argue just send to the benifit people as required.

Regarding the Bioelectromagnitics, I have deduced from my understanding of that I need to make sure my body is helped to vibrate at the correct frequency and so each day walk on the earth, and this has reduced and stopped the vibrating, so i believe I have found the solution.

Discharged from Physio awaiting referal to Neuro/studying Bioelectromagnetics

Friday 10 October

I have improved in strength since last week, and back doing the knee exercises given to me.

I have another avenue I have been looking into, that of vibrating, for I feel vibrations in my body most days and have decided to deduce what is causing them. I know tiredness seems to be a variable that increases the strength of the vibrations felt in my body.

I made a thread regarding it on Facebook
https://www.facebook.com/louise.clarke.7505/posts/10204144096816257

Here I write
Thinking,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,my body vibrates, has done for a few years now. Told drs ,,,they dont know,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,got 4 roads to look down
1, Physio-psychological (general) a made up term by me,,,like general sense, of word, mass programming.
2, ELF..electronic frequency
3, Demonic ; which work on frequency waves.
4, Repressed body memory
5, Programed body instructions

I first searched re Physical medical realm on net and found many sites with threads where people describe similar sensations, where they have had tests for everything it seems and still obtained no answers. Although I did notice a common theme of spinal problems, and the sensations related to the spinal area involved. Some of which were L5/S1 which is where i had surgery, and also the area where I felt my muscle switch off and resulting in my collapsing on the 25th.

I then looked at ELF, and noted yes I live right next to a tower and yes when I returned recently from the coast I was feeling OK, but as soon as I returned home I became tired and vibrated strongly, so I went back to the coast this Monday gone to see if the vibrations stopped. They didn't although they were not so strong.
But I also note I am less stressed at the coast, but have more comforts there like a bath and a good bed, and the sea.

I returned back to London to attend my physio appointment for my knees Wednesday.
She said she had spoken to her college who assessed me for the MCAT team and he had told her he has written to my GP to refer me to Neuro for a diagnosis.
I informed her of how I had collapsed since last seeing her but was back doing her exercises now.She said I no longer needed appointments with her as I just needed to continue doing the knee exercises she had given me.
She also gave me a sheet with exercises for my back on.
I told her how I spend a lot of time lying down as my back is too weak to sit up for long, she told me to try to avoid laying down as that makes the work I do to strengthen my knees become ineffective.

So since Wednesday I have been pushing myself to sit and move about rather than lay down. What I found is that this tired me somewhat and results in stronger body vibrations occuring, so confirms somewhat that tiredness is involved.

But also I have a friend who is very knowledgeable who suggested the vibration may be coming from me and that a way to know would be to try and increase/decrease.

This I tried to do and found yes if I focused on, like tensed up, like holding my breath sort of, I could stop the vibrations temporarily.
I therefore went on to learn more about frequencies and Bioelectromagnetics

Bioelectric and Bioelectromagnetic Fundamental Principles of Living Cells

Fundamental Principles of Bioelectric and Bioelectromagnetic Disorders of Living Cells

So now I am looking into how I can better stablize my body frequencies.

I have found dancing improves my strength in muscles, and am now looking at the effects of activity and also music.
I will update on my findings next week.

My back collapsed on 25 september but I'm up again

3 October
Well it seems I have weekly updates to give, so I better get this one done before next week arrives.
Following on from last weeks report here on the 23 September which was Tuesday, I stood up to go shopping on Thursday and a muscle in the lower part of my spine went loose and i was not longer able to stand up, my back had collapsed.
I am familiar with this happening and know just lay still and don't fret or all the muscles will lock and cause pain.

I posted on Facebook what had happened and a friend said she would come over and another would come to collect me the following day and take me back to the sea, where I have bed and support.
When my back collapses I am not able to walk , stand or sit,,I use a zima frame to move but it is extremely hard for when I lift it off the ground I am not able to support my body, all my strength is in my upper body and arms so very tiring.

I called my GP surgery to report it and see what they could do, they said call back in the morning.
Through the night I come to realise it would not be a good idea for me to go to the sea and I would need to get up stairs once I arrived; which would involve me lifting my whole body. I realised I may not be able to do this once there and therefore was concerned with what would that mean. I recognised I would need to be taken to hospital there but unable to sit would need streacher. I decided instead to call GP surgery in the morning and ask them to help me.
I called at 8am, the receptionist said he would get a GP to call me,they would be calling around 11.30 am.
The time came and went, I waited until about 2.30pm and then asked my friend at sea to call them and ask what was happening, as I had run out of phone credit.
She did so and was told I was on the list for the Dr to call.
around 5pm still no call and I also was aware I was not passing urine, which I had been told by my other friend; an Occupational therapist this was not good as toxins would build in body. I told her how in the past yes my body had swollen up and felt like a tight band around my waist, (which you can see I have draw also in the art at the side of this blog.)

When the tightness got so bad and i felt like I would explode and well in a sense I did as I stood I projected sick everywhere.
So she said no I needed to go to hospital.

My friend called GPs again and they said the Dr will call, but will then say get an ambulance.
So I called an ambulance, and because I said No I don't have pain, only cant walk, stand or sit, so can't get to hospital, I was told No I couldnt have an ambulance as based on what i say cant send emergency ambulance so call doctor again, but she recognised i had, or call 111.

I could call 111 and they could assess me and may get me an ambulance.
So I waited for the GP to call instead as I knew if he refered me I would be seen quicker at hospital. He called 7.39 pm.

I told him of my predicament, he said call Social services, although they were now closed until Monday, as I needed food.
I asked him about him refering he said no I needed to call them. I said about how my friend says I need an environmental assessment for my manouring in my home, he said that is an Occupational therapists job, he could refer me to one but not to Social services. He said he would make a referal for me to Occupational therapy.

I asked what could he do re my back, he said only give pain killer and support. I said no I wasn't in pain but not passing urine. He told me to call an ambulance. I told him that i had tried and was refused and told to call 111, and i asked could he call one, he said NO.

I decided not to go to hospital as it was evening and would be stressful and I would need to get assessed on phone, then if they argeed to give me an ambulance, I may wait forever at hospital, being low priority, and would do better to try and relax my body and pass urine by massaging my bladder.
The next day Saturday I was somewhat stronger, in that I could manouver around my home on the zima frame without the feeling coming from my muscles like one wrong move and they would tear.
I proceeded to improve and had a friend come and get freash veg for me which I made a soup with, plus I managed to drive to Chinese herb shop on Monday to buy Gou Qui Berries to strenghten me.
Today I am not in need of any walking aid.

Next week I return to the Physiotherapist I see for my knees, which yes I am able again to do the exercises she gave me.